There is a moment, there is a level of discernment, when you get to choose what energy you will jump into, what thread you will follow, from what energy you will act.
The experiencee of wholeness, brought about by the practices of yoga, has a basis in science, in the very laws of the universe at the most fundamental level.
Do your spiritual practice, despite what your mind says about the conditions that have to be in place to do it. That’s where your aliveness is.
You have time to commit to yourself. Let it not be what you think.